Because I'm a DIY-er, and because I have only gotten this far on little else than moxie, I don't have a lot of realistic professional knowledge when it comes to composing and being a composer. This is potentially hazardous because I create primarily on how my music comes off to the listener.
Studying all kinds of different artists and how people approach and enjoy them is no help. I hear mixes that are great, but redundant, or creative but muddy or redundant and muddy and people seem to eat it all up. The only thing I can come up with that works as a general indicator for me is "If it sounds good to me, it sounds good to them."
Problem now is, what if I can't tell? I'm working on a serious-intentioned New Age/Ambient album (ambient song structures with new age instrumentation and such) and I'm really shooting for the moon here and trying to create a sound that is familiar but unique at the same time. I'm WAY behind on this project and its because the tracks I'm completing just don't move me in any way. I have two tracks (which I'll present in a minute) that I've put like 60 hours on combined in the last 2 weeks.
And I'm fucking exhausted. I can't stop and do something else because I want to get this thing fucking done already and I have other projects down the road that need my attention, but at the same time, to me they only might be working.
I feel this detachment in a lot of my tracks that aren't in E Major. Is this sort of detachment normal for all composers? Does it just come with the package, or is it bullshit that means I'm not ready to make some money off this trade?
Here are the tracks I'm working on, which are largely done but still incomplete jengas. I'm getting each track professionally mastered and I'm hoping it makes the songs brighter and the transitions fit better, but right now, I don't know. I hear songs with worse quality that work somehow, I don't see why mine can't.
http://www.savefile.com/files/2125054
http://www.savefile.com/files/2125052