LOL!!!
do note, vanguard is as good as you want it to be. Don't just rely on patches like some noobs do.
And I think I speak for most people (especially myself) when I say your first songs, remixes, originals, demos, whatever you want to call them, they will suck in the eyes of many many others. I've been using FL for just under 3 years now and I still make crap =D .
Best thing to do is ask for advice, take what you want, and improve.
....and welcome to ocr