Right...
I think (sadly) I'm just going to have to be frank and honest with myself and drop out of MnP & PRC for a bit...
I'll continue to check in on occasion and maybe still use the sources to make remixes on the side with, but insofar as putting stuff out into the compos themselves--clearly whatever I am doing isn't cutting it, or cohesive enough to be viable for it.
And FWIW--it's not really the points or the constant losing that bothers me--it's the fact it's the same issues over and over again--no matter how I try to rectify them currently, with each new song I compose, and it doesn't seem to be getting any better... And some of the critique I get I don't understand what is meant by it, musically wise, or I don't hear what's wrong--so it's doing me no good unless I get a breakdown of what exactly is dissonant, how and why, but that's a level of handholding no one would feasibly have time for, nor would I ask it of them. I don't put out material I don't think sounds good or right...but clearly my ears are shot to hell, lol.
Good luck guys. I'll catch ya'll on the flip and either peek in to evaluate on occasion or to listen to the great stuff ya'll generally put out...way more so than my own. o/
**EDIT: (Also, FWIW, I appreciate people like my drumwork and percussion, but sadly most compositions need decent melody and harmony work, and clearly I just need to get better at doing it, and hearing it, period. But I am aware and do appreciate when people say the drums, mixing/mastering or composition framework is strong... I just also know that those alone don't make for a strong song, so I need to go off and work on the other things so it can stop sounding atonal and disproportionate.)