if you want to get anywhere, you just have to accept that you will fail oh so many times more.
failure, of course, is relative to the goals you've set for yourself and to how strictly you pursue those goals.
myself, i've accepted that i just do a lot of shoddy work, technically speaking. i constantly end up missing the sound i've got going in my head by a mile. so many things end up being non-deliberate and accidental.
that said, there are happy accidents. they can take your music to entirely new places, even when they start out sounding like shit.
they still require quite some work, usually, to make them work.
so yeah, no matter if you still want to picture something in your mind and bring it into existence with formidable accuracy, or if you're trying to work with all the "byproducts" and modify your goals dynamically as you see fit, it all boils down to a lot of work.
if you want to get better you need to expand on your vocabulary, and you need to work on your delivery. we all have to do that.
your vocabulary is expanded by:
- taking existing concepts from others (or other things) and assimilating them.
- experiments.
your delivery improves as you get more experience working with said concepts and refine them.
mixing skills also help of course. i for one am pretty sure that if you continue doing the one man bedroom studio thing and getting some enjoyment out of it, your mixing skills will improve naturally along the way. if you want to be good at it asap, take some courses or read the internet.
making awesome music is a huge challenge. if you want it, deal with it.
truth be told, i haven't really dealt with it seriously for quite a while.
i hate my music sometimes, and i'm afraid of my own expectations.
raw deal. however, i know i'll be coming back for more. there's quite nothing like the creative rush of ecstasy when the stuff is really pouring out.
yup, it's downright orgasmic ^^